Last post of 2011

So, here it comes the last day of 2011.

It's been a year since that galauism new year eve. Yeah, I just read my old posts about it, and aw come on, past me! Seems like I was in a chronic suffocation of breathing poisonous galau gas. Meh. #jijiksendirinulisnya

Another new year, another story. 2010 was one of my bad year, 2011 was much better, at least I enjoyed life more. Life's harder of course, and still people come and go. It's like sitting on a crossroad with a bucket of popcorn, watching the flow and enjoy the show.

This evening, I was lying on my bed, tortured by this goddamn vertigo attack. I started to wonder what life would be if I made a total different choices over all this year? Life is about choices, isn't it? 2011 was one with bunch of it. I pictured myself in a Eurotrip with my friends, if I took the double-degree or exchange program in Europe. I pictured myself having a solo trip away from friends in whatsoever country like Japan or Australia, or maybe having fun with total strangers I just met there. I pictured myself trapped in the same cycle, if I'm not taking the risk, or it could be something better happened, not sure of it though. Wasn't ever sure of it. A year is so much of to change a human life, to make choices, to have some adventures, to explore stuffs, and to make it worth.

Then, next year is another series of choices. What you choose is something that more or less will define what is going to happen in your future. Yes, it is scary to imagine that every step you made in this very day will affect the rest of your life. What if you made the wrong choice? So what? A choice is a choice, and there is no such thing as a wrong choice. Whatever happen due to your choice is something important to your life. Every single things matter, even the bad ones. And somehow you can re-choose the choices you've missed before. I believe that life consists of bunch of crossroad where at certain places you can turn back and make it different. The only thing you can't get back is time, because it just goes on.

Anyway, I'm hoping us all a great new year! Let this vertigo goes away to the darkest of the night, and let me go. Planning to go to Nglanggeran this night, and I'm not letting you ruin this, V.

Better sleep, then.

And oh, 2012, surprise me

...for whatever will happen.

:)